One step, tentative, searching, going in,
Feeling happy and then sad;
Where to and why?
One step closer, or further away;
Hoping my happiness shines my inner sadness.
Hoping my sadness tempers my confidence;
Slow, tentative, reaching closer to my wish,
Wish not to be lost forever.
Things familiar, but longtime forgotten.
Forces shaped in the past, Piercing my inner turbulence;
Yes, feeling happy now, but sad again!
My inner desires searching for calm waters.
I search, tentative steps, hoping for inner peace.